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Thursday, January 8, 2009
World doesn't end here...
I just couldn't believe that suddenly it was all over.... a relationship that was nurtured with love, trust and dreams for so many years shattered in no time... I cried, wept and fought with god that why did it happen to me, why anyone but just me. There was no answer from God as he chose silence... No one knew whether this silence meant the acceptance of the blame by God, which I assumed so, or was chosen so as anyway no words could assuage me that time... in any case my pain was not relieved ... and I kept crying... in vain and then sobbed in pain for a long long time making no noise... hiding away my face from the crowd. With no one to hear my sobs and none to feel my pain I soon slipped into the world of endless loneliness which led to nothing and nothing but a great vacuum knowing nothing what to do...
As I looked for wisdom to understand the chaos, the great wise men on earth explained that the world is not fair and emotions are evil. Emotion such as love has no place in the practical world and being practical means to move on from the trauma and restart living mundane life mechanically. Confused and lost, still not believing that I had lost something that was so dear to me, which can never be recovered back, I went numb to the inhumane world...
But the world didn't end here....
I took some time to overcome the trauma and to learn what to do, I was soon trapped into the rights and wrongs... I was taught that it is right to move on and find "alternatives" that may replenish the loss... and is wrong to stick to what you value so dearly because currently it lost any meaning. Although not convinced, yet too weak to fight back I tried to find alternatives that could make my life happier but couldn't find any of them in the great mazes I went into. Traversing through these mazes I forgot what exactly I was looking for but always felt the vacuum in me that was created by the loss. The glittering objects I encountered were what I thought I was looking for but they didn't give me any comfort I needed. I soon realized that I cant be satiated without what I must find.... my love...
I questioned again, this time more gravely, if it is all really over? Is my soul mate no more? The answer was a cliche... souls are neither created nor destroyed, they just change the forms... But it takes some time for the soul to take another form and return back to us. But you must have hope and patience to wait and to be ready to welcome your soul mate when it returns in another form. You do not need to aimlessly search for your soul mate as it might not be ready yet and you would not recognize its form anyway. You might get disillusioned by many other fake objects that glitter and may lead to a temporary solace but no nirvana. What you really can do is to do what has to be done.... prepare yourself to be in best of your health, wealth and mental state to welcome your soul mate once it arrives. Even if you do not recognize the form of your soul mate, it knows you so well that it will find you wherever you are... You just have to wait patiently for your soul mate to come back and take you along. The soul mate may return in the same form or may take another but if you wait for it passionately it will respond to your call, reciprocate your feelings and come back... sooner or later...
As I looked for wisdom to understand the chaos, the great wise men on earth explained that the world is not fair and emotions are evil. Emotion such as love has no place in the practical world and being practical means to move on from the trauma and restart living mundane life mechanically. Confused and lost, still not believing that I had lost something that was so dear to me, which can never be recovered back, I went numb to the inhumane world...
But the world didn't end here....
I took some time to overcome the trauma and to learn what to do, I was soon trapped into the rights and wrongs... I was taught that it is right to move on and find "alternatives" that may replenish the loss... and is wrong to stick to what you value so dearly because currently it lost any meaning. Although not convinced, yet too weak to fight back I tried to find alternatives that could make my life happier but couldn't find any of them in the great mazes I went into. Traversing through these mazes I forgot what exactly I was looking for but always felt the vacuum in me that was created by the loss. The glittering objects I encountered were what I thought I was looking for but they didn't give me any comfort I needed. I soon realized that I cant be satiated without what I must find.... my love...
I questioned again, this time more gravely, if it is all really over? Is my soul mate no more? The answer was a cliche... souls are neither created nor destroyed, they just change the forms... But it takes some time for the soul to take another form and return back to us. But you must have hope and patience to wait and to be ready to welcome your soul mate when it returns in another form. You do not need to aimlessly search for your soul mate as it might not be ready yet and you would not recognize its form anyway. You might get disillusioned by many other fake objects that glitter and may lead to a temporary solace but no nirvana. What you really can do is to do what has to be done.... prepare yourself to be in best of your health, wealth and mental state to welcome your soul mate once it arrives. Even if you do not recognize the form of your soul mate, it knows you so well that it will find you wherever you are... You just have to wait patiently for your soul mate to come back and take you along. The soul mate may return in the same form or may take another but if you wait for it passionately it will respond to your call, reciprocate your feelings and come back... sooner or later...
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